wow, three days off. i thought it had been two. i haven’t taken one food photo. well, one that didn’t involve leftovers. and i was still not inspired to post that.
i’m apartment searching! i wouldn’t say hunting, because it’s a bit more relaxed than that. i had my first walk-through ever on tuesday, and am seeing three more places with that realtor saturday morning. after that, i’m going to the apartment complex i’ve basically had my eye on since i was 8 years old. i don’t know why. it’s in the middle of a town i really like, but it’s just over my comfort zone.
i’ve been calculating and recalculating. and basically, trying to convince myself i will fail no matter what. i really think i’ve written down everything i can, though. and even accounting for buying a new car, i could potentially do it! some online browsing just now turned out that i might not have cushioned enough for the car payments. and i thought i was being generous! ah, well. new car shmew car. and i would eat smarter (and cook more. hello, no more weeks like this week), but i still think i would be fine. not strapped, or, not hopefully.
most of my lists the past week have been brainstorming any possible monetary monthly needs, and the most current – writing out all sorts of standard pricing for groceries from shoprite online. i don’t know why i thought it would comfort me. it just made me sleepy, haha. i already think i could eat pretty inexpensively and still be happy about it… i’m just trying to realize everything else will work out fine, too. it’s been a while in my current situation, and it’s a big step. but i can’t wait.
my parents are talking to me again today, so all is on the up-and-up! hahaha. they were upset. they don’t want me to leave. but it’s not as tragic of a situation as it seemed monday night. 🙂 and i’m so excited to look around on saturday! it’s an exciting thing, even if i’m trying to worry myself over every thing.